Unattractively Attractive?

Sure we all have crushes on the 'hotties' of our social scenes.  The boys who are good looking and know it.  The ones who actually know what fashion is and do a pretty good job of following it.  Yes, we all have crushes on those type of guys.   However when it comes down to love, its quite rare Fate gives us a hottie to fall for.  It seems with the new era of geek-chic being ushered in by shows like 'The Big-Bang Theory', falling for the not so trendy is becoming.. well a trend!

For example, right now I'm mad for a guy who I know isn't attractive.  As in I can see that he lacks any form of 'hotness' what so ever.  For a while I did think he was hot, but as time has went on I'm able to subjectively admit he is really not the nicest.  Yet that doesn't stop me wanting him to text me or speak to me when I see him and it doesn't stop the butterflies I get in my stomach every time I see him.

It's not even optional!  If I had my way I wouldn't like him, I would - like so many of my peers - fix my gaze on a totally unavailable gorgeous being.  Isn't there some theory that us girls are attracted to the men who give us the best possible future or something?  Well I can honestly say that theory is bull.  Unfortunately it seems this is one matter Fate is letting us have no control over, however much we disagree.