Christmas Spirit

I love Christmas, even more so when people go out of their way to do something kind this holiday season.  My Mums ex-mother-in-law just dropped off Christmas cards for us all and gave me £5.  Her son and my mum haven't been together for over 20 years - I wasn't even born then - and she still pops a card in for my family.  She is lovely and everyone should take a leaf out of her book.

Its my birthday tomorrow - I'm ridiculously excited.  I'm busy tidying right now which isn't great but later i'm making vodka jelly!

Have a good Christmas folks!

XOXO

When It Rains, It Fucking Pours.

My car broke.
We just booked the car parking for our car when we go to Tunisia next month and tonight it broke.
Think the gear box is fucked.
So unamused.
I can't fucking pay for this to be fixed!  My birthday is next week, I still need money for the night out and a dress, it's Christmas in 11 fucking days and now I need to fork out money for my car to get fixed.
I am so unhappy.

On the plus side I swapped Christmas presents with my two best friends tonight.
One of them opened theirs and the other is waiting til Xmas.
Love this time of the year, love giving presents to someone and them genuinely appreciating what you got them!

Get a new phone soon, hopefully Iphone 5 or 5S/C.
I wish I could win the lottery.
Life would be less stressful.

I start my new job tonight.
In a pub.
The boss terrifies me.
I'm so scared I fuck up.
I have no idea what to wear.
Now I don't even have a car to go in.
LIFE SUCKS.

XOXO

Sleeping Pattern Of A Squirrel

Squirrels can sleep for up to 14 HOURS AT A TIME.
This is the part that probably separates the two different kind of people on the internet because I imagine half of you just went "Well that seems like a waste of time and very boring" and the other half went "HOW CAN I EVOLVE INTO A SQUIRREL".
I personally think I've started evolving.  My love for my bed is unreal.  I could go to a class, come home and go straight back to sleep.
But I suppose my late mornings (okay early afternoons in most cases) are due to the fact I fall asleep between 3 and 4 AM.
I need to get that shit sorted out.

It's bloody freezing today as per usual in Scotland.
I'm going to the doctors to get a prescription for the vaccinations I need for Tunisia next month.
Also have to pop by the travel agents and book accommodation for when we come back cause our plane lands at 2300.
Later I am gift exchanging with my friend.  Is it acceptable to not wrap the gift?  Because I really don't want to have to go buy wrapping paper..

XOXO

Surprising Statistics (and a slight apology)

I made this blog.. 2011.  Yep just checked, 2011.

Jesus.  That seems like so long ago.  And I completely abandoned it!

Okay so I realise I don't have any 'followers' or even 'avid/interested readers' but I honestly thought it would only be lil ole me re-reading through my rants.

I've always written it as though to an audience but never assumed I had one.

So to all you bloggers, you bored, bored, bored internet people - who have traveled from looking at what was probably a relevant, interesting blog, to here - I thank you!

I basically come on here to rant.  Well, no.  If I came on here every time I needed to rant i'm sure there would not have been a years gap.

So whether you are reading and relating, or skimming through looking for something interesting - HELLO.

Nice to have you here.

Stick around, you never know, I may say something mildly interesting or amusing at some point!

No promises though.

XOXO 

Life Sucks

Like it really does.
I'm constantly lying.
My parents think i'm doing HND when in fact i'm resitting HNC cause I dropped out last year because nobody liked me and I lost motivation.
I'm losing motivation this year.
I don't want to be there.
And fuck knows what having supportive parents would be like.
Better I assume.
Social life is shit.
Keep making bad decisions when i'm drunk.
I smoke.
I have sex with strangers.
I go off in strange cities with strange boys without a second thought.
I can't let go of someone who doesn't give a shit about me.
My friends use me.
I use them right back.
We bitch, we lie, we fight, we cry.
We laugh, we love each other.
We hate each other, can't stand the sight of each other, want to do nothing but talk about each other.
We come together in the end.
Mostly.
I'm damaged.
I'm clean, but inside i'm a wreck.
Emotions.  Anxiety.  Depression.
Laziness.  Obesity.  Insomnia.
I love too easily, get attached too easily, give a fuck too easily.
Literally and figuratively.
I don't know how to change.
I don't know where to go from here.
Is this life?
Cause i'm not happy.
And whats the point if you're not happy?
We are only here for a finite amount of time.
Why do we spend it in ways we don't like.
Education to get a profession to get money.
Money we can't enjoy because of the work.
The time when you can enjoy you worry too much.
Which courses, which college, which university, which profession, which tombstone.
We work to die and that's not how it should be.
Tangent much?

XOXO